Just SMiiLES =) -- it's Healthly =)

HEART above all else =)

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 16:50:35 GMT

" i've made up my mind, and i'm setting IT straight! HEART above all else =D "

Summer Goals (updated)

- Pay off VISA's =(
- Work as much as possible =S
- G2 on Aug 30 (fingers crossed)

"i'm happy i got in the car with you..."

"can i ride you?..."

*****GUYS I WANT A CAR LIKE BUMBLE BEEEE =)

about time i started =)

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 17:06:49 GMT

MAiiN SUMMER GOALS

- Work as much as possible (gotta pay off everything before school starts)
- G2 (possible days: July22/28/29 or Aug11/12)

not so happy after all....?

Thu, 10 May 2007 18:00:54 GMT

okay well then i guess anyone could read this right? just like like showed on the presentation at school or what not.... aw well it's the only place where people can actually write down what they feel and i actually don't care who reads this, copies or makes fun of it cause there's always once in your life where your gonna feel the way i'm feeling and then IT'LL HIT YOU and you'll realized that you were stupid to bring up stupid comments about it. ANYWAYS...... back to what i was going to say.... it hurts doesn't it when the one person you always run to isn't there much? that's why i said before never say ALWAYS AND FOREVER, cause when i need you and your not there, ill make it a big deal! and i know many of you agree with me, either it's towards you or you and someone/friend am i right? aw well what can we really do right? they have more important things to do in life other than to care about you...... yes school, family and work are #1, so then why replace it with friends or a boyfriend or girlfriend? thinking about how my life has been for the past 5 years, i actually did grow up and realize many things, it's just there's something STILL missing, can't quite find it, or it can't find me, i'm not toooooo sure about it. But all i can honestly do it just sit here and take in everything GOD lays infront of me. Like that saying goes "ask and you shall receive" right? and so i ask, but i guess my prize will take some time. yes it is 2 days before my birthday and i feel like crap, i feel as if it's not as big of a deal as i thought it would be TO ME, i don't care if it was a big deal to YOU GUYS but to me IT WAS, but with all these BULLSHIET excuses i'm thinking was i ever worth the time to even talk to? all those times that i was there for you, stuck up for you and put up with you, YOU ALL GIVE ME STUPID ASS MOTHER FCUKING EXCUSES. well i'm tiired of it all and i'm tiired of everything else, i'm siick and thank GOD this year i'm not losing my voice like last year, and VERY FED UP WITH A LOT OF THINGS. and so now that's it, sorry if i'm a bitch towards you, ILL GIVE YOU THE SAME ATTITUDE YOU GAVE ME WHEN I ASK YOU TO BE THERE FOR ME LIKE I HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ALL OF YOU. this is all a waste of time, and energy, so WHATEVER HAPPENS....HAPPENS.

I'll make the best of it, and i'll make it WITH or WITHOUT ANY OF YOUR HELP..........
your right bestest, NO STRESS, WHO GIVES A FCUK!

"company of friends and help has never felt better "

birthday gift idea's =P

Thu, 03 May 2007 02:49:39 GMT

Even though i know most of you cannot afford it OR at least WON'T BUY IT FOR ME... here are some IDEA's of what i want for my 19th BIRTHDAY =)

- my G2 (i've been lofting and i hate it)
- a car ONCE i get my G2 lolz
- my OWN place
- a tabby cat =) (what sucks tho is that my mom and aunt are allergic....)
- just money will do =P
- EVERYONE TO COME AND CELEBRATE IT WITH ME =) yaaay!

2 days =)
&and&
10 days =)

special days =)

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 14:52:41 GMT

4 DAYS =)
&and&
12 DAYS =)

(8) i'll still love you until the day i die.......

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 04:08:59 GMT

RIP
031307

see you in the future,
i really do miss saying
good night and good morning to you,
but what i know is, I WILL LOVE YOU
and will never forget you =)

right from wrong?

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 03:29:16 GMT

am i really fighting for what is right?
or should i just let them have what they want?..

all i know is my mind is set,
if i have to leave, then i will!!!!

[3.11.7 at 1:04am]
what i've realized is that...
Life isn't doing what you want,
it's doing what others tell you to do....
anyone care to disagree?

but it's okay, because when you know what your doing you'll be fine (y) meanwhile, just thinking about it... i will not lie, i will regret it also will i not forget about it but for sure there is SOMEONE to blame, and no it's not myself, BECAUSE it is NOT fully my decision but....... THAT person! yah its wrong to blame someone else for my own actions, but this decision wasn't made cause i wanted it, it was because IT'S WHAT THAT PERSON WANTED. well guess what, i can't wait to get away from you and i cannot wait till you are proven wrong! DONE DEAL!!!

I'M SET FOR LIFE,
I LOVE YOU JERIC,
TILL DEATH DO US PART!
I PROMISE!

done and over with......

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 16:32:36 GMT

mind set... DONE =)

is it really?

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 17:17:29 GMT

Happy 4our Months
I LOVE YOU HUBBY!!!!
with every beat of my puso
PEXMAN!!!! <3

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2 more days till
my final decision.....

the biggest decision......

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 02:16:41 GMT

never thought this day would actually come..... now the pressures all on me and it's so stressing..... no matter what anyone says, or advice given to me... it's my say, it's my call, and it's one of the biggest decision i would EVER make ON MY OWN =/

just for you =)

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 15:31:29 GMT

*baby this is just for you, hopefully it will make sense like it does in english =P but remember i'm trying cause i love you and i know how much you want me to talk tagalog to you, therefore...... HERE I GO =P

Una gusto ko lang sasabihin sayo, mahal na mahal kita, saka palagi ako dito para sayo. Alalahanin mo okaaay, pati pangako sayo diba? OO!! Mula sa gabi at araw, mamahalin kita kahit ano mangyari. Palagi ako masaya kasama ka, i feel as if nothing can ever take that away, kasi maramdaman ko ang ganda buhay ko na. Ikaw ay akin mundo, akin buhay, akin tunay mahalin, pati akin dahilan. Mamahalin kita with all of my buo puso, till kamaytayan do us humiwalay. =)

**heheh seeeeeee babe, i tried, just for you, but personally i think i should just to saying at least 2-1 tagalog word in ever each of my sentence, hehe! aw welpz, i hope it makes sense, haha!!! mahal kita palagi =)

our promise

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 05:07:47 GMT

"GAGAWiN KO ANG LAHAT
PANGAKO MO LANG Di AKO iiWAN
DAHiL MAHAL, MAHAL NA MAHAL KiTA....."

pex man?
I LOVE YOU JERIC CHRISTIAN
always and FOREVER
because,
IT'S OUR PROMISE!!! =)

i love you, always and forever, i promise!

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 18:10:06 GMT

baby you surprised me last nite, and all i gotta say is THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU with every beat of my puso =P
heheh........

KELLY'S PARTY TONIGHT! YAY!!!!!!! (y)

so.......prove it?

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 02:45:24 GMT

"It's just another replay...."*siigh*

sometimes i like to just let things go like what normally people do riite? i dont know maybe, but in this case its like another replay?.... have u ever had that feeling where you felt like you've been through it already or been through that already...... oh wait.... its called "deja vu" riite? YUPP! in this situation of mine tho isnt a "deja vu" its called a MOVIE!!!!!! its like everytime i try to accept things and let things go, they tend to bottle up and outta nowhere RELEASE and....... get rewinded.. YUPP..... "THE REAL LIFE OF CHRISTINE HATULAN." SO what if i have a smile on my face...... doesnt mean ANYTHING...... people smile, people laugh, but they cry and they get hurt..... so where is all the STRESSLESS PEOPLE GONE? theres no such thing.......... if there was....... I CERTIANLY WOULDNT BE IN THAT LITTLE CLICK!.......... ugggggggh been getting annoyed lately? YES! havent been sleeping lately? YES!!!!! havent been eating on time? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! been skipping school? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmm.... thats mayb why my marks are going down.... am i unhappy?.... i dont know..... rite now im just...... feeling as if my life is being rewinded and played again......

addicted?????

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 04:11:19 GMT

OH NO!. i think im addicted to....... facebook =(
you bastards got me hoooooooked! LMAO.......

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 22:26:11 GMT

H3M

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 17:07:43 GMT

(8) dahil mahal, mahal na mahal kita.....

im addicted to my tagalog soap opera, hehe
these two below... are my inspiration =) through thick and thin, through confusion and lies, through love and pain........ THEY STILL MADE IT THROUGH =)

this family of siblings actually show that no matter what.... FAMILY IS A MAiiN!!!

(continued on 2.1.7)
i love this soap opera! =) got the WHOLE series volumes 1-8 from my parents on christmas and just finished it yesterday =) a WHOLE MONTH!
gulong ng palad = wheel of fortune =)
........"what's important is life has nothing to do with money, but Family, God and Love itself can satify one...."
heheh...... everyone lives happily ever after.......... if only life were like that.... =)

my sacrifice

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 19:54:45 GMT

let's see if i still have the journlism talk in me.....

People make sacrifices for a reason that's either personal or for a social status. In this case, the sacrifice i made was to give it up completely. A part of me was telling me not to, but i knew it was the right thing to do. I made the right decision, and i made the right choice. My mind is set, but it's going to take a few days to get over, even though it hurts deep down inside i gotta keep it bottled up, it's to late to change anything, I'm happy with what i have and it's keeping me focused, not distracted. I guess with a little distraction, it makes situations so much more complicated, especially to accept, your mind can only handle so little. "So let me on down, Cause time has made me strong, I'm starting to move on, I'm gonna say this now, Your chance has come and gone, And you know............. It's just too little too late....." a phrase from a song that explains the type of situation I'm in. Don't want to keep things from anyone, I don't want to break anymore promises, so this is for the best, as of today the biggest sacrifice in my life that I've made is..... YOU. It's been fun, but i take this as advice for the both of us to get over one another completely, i have another life with someone else, and he's keeping sane, he is now my reason for living and for the smile that is advertised upon my face all day and all night, also the first and last voice I hear. I hope no one takes this the wrong way, but please understand I'm only human and I do make mistakes, noone's perfect. I was stuck in a diliemma where i had to choose between two people who are in important in my life, if i could i would've just choose to leave this world, but its not my time yet, therefore I thought it through, and got help from a few friends as well. "If you love something/someone let it/them go, ~~if they come back, then you'll know~~, otherwise things happen for a reason..." In a way that's what i followed but i know that nothings gonna go back to the way things used to be, I'm much happier now and nothing can change that, nothing can tear me away from my happiness, but death itself. But until then, this is my final decision, i made my mind up, nothing can change it. It's COMPLETELY OVER and done with, friends is how we started and friends is how it'll end. Yes it's true, friends come and go but when you really work at it, actions speak louder than words and I'm pretty sure my actions and determination proves all that. Don't think so far ahead, anything can happen in the i na few mins, few hours, few days, few months, and even few years. That also goes with pain and happiness. It's life, it sucks, but we all gotta go through it in order to find out our true identity, to create your personality and build who we are meant to be. In closing i just want to say that sacrifices are worth everything, but it depends who your doing it for.... family, school, friends, significant other, or even yourself. In this world of mine i may be selfish, stubborn, straight up and rude, it's just that i got all my priorities straight and for me i'm not letting anything complicate things. So this sacrifice i made today, was my decision, was my own doing, and my own thinking, and for that i think it was a good choice .... see you when i see you......... keep smiling, it's healthly =)

here we go again?

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 16:48:29 GMT

change?... hmm?....
all i gotta keep in mind is...
"keep smiling chrissy, you'll get by..."

everything out in the open =)

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 17:35:47 GMT

didn't go to school today cause i'm siick =(.... had the most blessing talks with the two amazing people in my life. Thank you both =)
finally able to let everything go and live my life the way i want to, and not worry because it's not my life nor is it my business.... gonna accept it weither ilike it or not i have to. Thank you baby for understanding, i was so scared i didnt know how to tell you, but i am really thankful for having you in my life to understand and continue to love me mroe than ever. I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER, I PROMISE =) <3 2010 remember....... frog&butterfly =)

YUPP, im good to go =)

hula practise for my debut

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 00:54:12 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_qlNJ_3BCM

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJsnnvjoJDM

one more day =)

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 01:31:18 GMT

HAPPY (early) NEW YEARS EVERYONE

dear friend,
im finally ready to let go and let you be
just becareful on what you decide to do
and remember that i tried
but you pushed me away
just remember, i will always love you
from 915 till the day i die!
love always chrissy

special day =)

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 15:43:56 GMT

christmas was great, just had a few thoughts running through my head
on the otherhand.......... was supposed to go to work today (9-1)
ended up not going cause i woke up late HAHAH!..... its okaaaay

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY; iloveyou =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS =)

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 03:13:59 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

THE LAST WEEK OF 2006
25 - famjam at my house
26 - parents 19 years wedding anniversary // SHOPPPPPPING!!!!!!!!
27 - work from 9a-1p // BABY'S 17th BIRTHDAY
28 - work from 9a-1p // Linda&Mark's second month // movies(black christmas)?
29 - work from 9a-1p
30 -
31 - church&movies&downtown with baby =)

...i guess?

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 22:05:31 GMT

sorry ladies & gents but this entry might get a few of you either cheesed OR get you thinking, just wanna say sorry in advance for what emotion you're gonna feel.

things happen for a reason, which i hate to believe. I hate to think that after all is said and done, NOW is where i completely lose you. I guess i deserve it?

maybe your right, i dont know what love is about, maybe cause ive been hurt so many times and had so many doubts, but what i know FOR SURE is that what he and i share is something i've never felt before, something i've never felt with you before. With that i'll admit before i thought i knew what i wanted and i got it when all i needed in my life wasn't even a WANT in life, it was A NEED. My whole life changed, love isn't blinding, you choose it to be. Love, what is it? everyone has their own definition and has their own set of meanings of love and life. When i say i will always love you i meant what i said, cause of me i know i will, to you maybe not cause i brought you so much pain, and i dont blame you, but what i don't get is that "u can't believe you fell for me?" that's the most stupidest line i've ever heard, and thats the most stupidest things to even write down, everyone has their reasons and u know your reasons why u fell, i fell for you too u dont see me saying "i can't believe i fell for you." NOT ONCE HAD I EVER REGRETED OUR RELATIONSHIP NOR EVER DOUBTED OR DENIED US, in this case, it sounds like YOU ARE. I know what im saying and what im saying is the truth sorry if it hurts, LOVE IS PAIN! i say many different things, everyone says many different things, im not perfect, and neither are you, we're only human! no matter what sort of pain you try to bring into my life, you can never make me frown, i live my life to the fullest and everything anyone says to me is worth smiling about! you live only once, and then.... only GOD knows. what is it with you? all of a sudden you wanna break promises and all that sort of BS? if u don't wanna be friends anymore then so be it, i've played my part and tried my best, remember YOU WERE NEVER THE ONLY ONE IN PAIN! i shared my moments of agony and tears and got through them, not completely, but majority. if your just gonna say "EFF WHAT YOU SAY, EFF WHAT YOU DO, IM OUT HAVE A GOOD LIFE, EZ..." then my reply to you is, "okay and thanks for everything." with a HUGE ass smile on my face =)

Keep Smiling Everyone; It's Healthy =)